Hello! A bit late with the blog, though our vlog channel has been up since early this week with new videos from the holidays. Happy New Year anyway! 7 days has passed by already?! How could that be! A few weeks ago, everyone was running about getting Christmas shopping done and attending get-togethers left and right. I am thankful that life is slowing down now. December was jam packed with all sorts of festivities. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I am starting the year right, with work and projects steadily running. I am praying that this lasts throughout the year because WE NEED TO GET BUSY with the blog and our YouTube channel this year. THAT IS MY GOAL FOR 2016!
2015 has certainly been the most challenging year of our parenting life. What with Joaquin’s eczema taking over our lives and our first year with two kids. It was hard! But with God’s grace, He helped us through the darkest times and gave us a ‘cure’ for Joaquin’s skin. For that, I am so grateful and faithful to our God! My prayers, tears, and cries were heard and God’s promises were kept. He comforted me during trying times, not just as a mom, but also as a wife. Oscar and I often bickered out of frustration with our earthly problems. We had different views on raising the kids (values, activities, etc.) and anything related to Wacky. It brought about a lot of fights and tampuhan. But I feel like He helped paved the way for us to communicate better, because after every fight, we’d actually talk and work things out! It may not seem like a big deal to others who have blissful marriages, but for a 5 year old marriage (a baby marriage!), it’s something worth celebrating. We went into this marriage with no experience. Our 8 years together as boyfriend and girlfriend could not have prepared us for anything we’ve gone through as man and wife. It was only after a year into marriage that I finally declared and accepted God to guide our relationship.
I’m not saying I now have a perfect marriage, no such thing exists! What I have is contentment, faith, peace and overflowing love. As I type this, we are having an argument over what I’m about to write next.
I started the week doing my first prayer and fasting, though not the food/liquid fast. That would be my next goal for the mid-year fast. I have been on social media and watching my TV series almost 24/7 and it has been consuming me completely. I needed to sacrifice something that I truly love doing, but is quite toxic really, and that was it. Since January 4th, I haven’t been on any social media site or seen any of the remaining Game of Thrones Season 5 episodes on my friend’s HD that was lent to me over the holidays. Last night, I had an itch to break my fast, but praise God I didn’t listen to my wants. I would have regretted it terribly. I even unknowingly pressed the Facebook app on Oscar’s without even thinking about it yesterday. I immediately closed the app before it loaded. My bad habit of over using social media has been well planted in me! If only Christian values have been as well planted as my social media habits. I believe I’m a good person, I don’t think I’ll ever be a perfect Christian in the eyes of God, but I try my hardest to live life the way He has asked us to. I fail to choose good at times (eg. gossiping, being impatient, unloving, and unforgiving). I am a work in progress but I am more at peace when I know I have been choosing good.
I felt a bit disappointed that Oscar didn’t join the fast with me. I was hoping it would be the turning point of our Christian journey together. But I didn’t want him to do it FOR ME. That was what he said. He was doing it for me. I didn’t think he should do it just because his wife asked him to. I let him off the hook before we even started because I knew it wasn’t right. It’s not my job to force him into things I do because of my faith and love for the Lord. I can only encourage, invite, and influence. I don’t see Christianity as forcing those around you to be good. I believe that’s not what God has called us to be as Christians. I mentioned that it took me a year into marriage into finally believing that without God at the center of our relationship, we’d be hopeless. Our first year of marriage and parenting was a trial I will never forget. There were times I thought we’d have to go our separate ways already. But He is good, I tell you! He worked His way into our hearts and that was that.
I chose to do my first prayer and fasting this year because I want to dedicate 2016 to God. I know, I know. Every Catholic/Christian says that, “To God Be The Glory.” I don’t really say that around much. I don’t know why. We have plans, oh do we have plans, for this year. I worry that we have such big plans and dreams that they’ll never come true! But I have faith that if it is in God’s will, it will all come to life in the next couple of months. And because of that faith, I will not be shattered by disappointments when they come. I seek comfort in the arms of the Lord, and there are am at peace.
Let me end this post with Joshua 21: 43-45:
2016 will be a GREAT YEAR! I claim it Lord!