Yes, I am still alive! I have been MIA for A WHILE. I really have no other excuse other than physical life demanded more attention and that I’ve lost my mojo with blogging. I think I started ‘falling off’ my routine when I got sick back in September all the way to October. I was negotiating with myself that if I stop blogging, I need to start vlogging. Two of my so-called passion in life. You know how you envision yourself doing things you love, enjoying it every moment and as bonus, earning from it? I get those moments, every single day, yet I always find myself putting it off for another day! I have high dreams for my mommy blog and our family vlog on YouTube. I truly do! But I got ‘lazy’ from writing simply because I didn’t want to talk about my problems here. Not that I want this blog to look like my life is all perfect (I hate those kind of blogs!), but I didn’t want it to be negative in THAT WAY. You see, I often engage in a battle with my self whether I should talk about our challenges in parenting, how Joaquin’s first year was a mix of happiness, disappointment and realizations, or my anxiety. See? That already seems a lot! So I decided to keep quiet instead and just take a break.
I think I’ve rested well enough and I’m ready to power through. Now I’m not promising that I will be blogging or vlogging daily (can you imagine juggling both?), but I will be more, hmm, productive and present in my little home online. It’s been a year of hiding behind happy faces and social media since I have given birth to Joaquin. I think I’m ready to share our life with all of you again. But promise not to judge (yeah right :D)! Oh, and Oscar will be helping more with the vlogging so it won’t just be my face in there anymore. What a relief! As much as I like being on camera, it’s family channel and it can’t be just me blabbing on. Hahaha!
In case you’re wondering how this realization came about, we finally got Joaquin dedicated at our Church in Victory Fort over the weekend. We have been waiting for a while and I think our ‘slot’ came in at the right time too. My spiritual journey has taken a halt. I haven’t been praying from the heart nor attending Church. I really do feel out of sync with life and it seems that it happens when I’m starting to become disconnected from Him. But at the Child Dedication ceremony, Pastor Dennis’ message on parenting and how we can’t help our children achieve our dreams in faith for them if we ourselves aren’t in line with Christ’ plans really woke me up. You know how we want our kids to be great readers or be creative? That simply cannot happen if we’re not reading with them or even encouraging them to read. I have been lenient, if anything, lax, with how we go about our days at home. It’s not good for Jacob even though we are homeschooling/unschooling him.
For the past 2 months, I feel like I have been an absentee parent in a way that I am not really instilling any values or life lessons to my sons. Like I mentioned with reading, we didn’t really raise a reader in Jacob, but I know that it’s not yet too late. It’s just that I have been pabaya with him that I let him play without guidance too much. I started this week telling him that he cannot play video games for 7 days. Yes, he already knows how to play video games at such a young age. You can’t blame him though, his parents are gamers. Anyway, I didn’t completely ban him from electronics, he can still watch his cartoons. But I did start a reading session with him. There’s not really a set time or anything, just that we have to read a book or for the day no matter how short or long they are.
And you know what? As part of our homeschooling/unschooling, I learned today that he has memorized the alphabet and knows how to write them in big and small letters. Wow. That happened with me being lax for the past 8 weeks. I applaud my husband for being a wonderful partner in this life and picking up my slack when needed. He got Jacob to do his letters (reading and tracing) almost every day. I would just practice with him with flash cards to see how much he knows from time to time. Praise God for giving me a husband and a father to my kids who care!
Well, this is getting pretty long for a return HELLO! I’m gonna need to backtrack a lot for the next couple of posts since I missed out on sharing fun memories on this blog. Please subscribe to our YouTube channel as well since we will have weekly vlogs there to start. I’ll be sharing them here too, but it will be super cool of you if you subscribed there! So many kwentos to come. 😀