I was baptized as a Roman Catholic when I was little. Grew up in a household where going to Church on Sundays can be an option, depending on your reasoning. Most of the time, I didn’t want to go. The only time we truly went to Catholic Church every Sunday would be during vacations in the US where all my sisters together with their husbands and kids would religiously go. I enjoyed those times though because Sundays there would really mean going to Church and spending quality time with each other afterwards.
To be honest, before when we miss service on Sundays, my faith deteriorates. I forget the importance of having a relationship with God and my pride tells me that I can conquer problems the world will throw at me all by myself.
Then my worldly problems started to overwhelm me, and it has successfully brought me down. It affected my marriage, my work, and my whole being. Sometimes I feel bad for God, I feel like when I am doing well, I turn around and put my relationship with Him on hold and go off my merry way. Then when I face trials and hardships, I turn back to him. I think that’s me not being faithful and taking advantage of Him accepting me despite my sins.
This time, I want to be consistent. I am turning my affection to Him, confessing that He is my God and that I am taken care of, because I’m so lucky! I’m lucky because my God is merciful and forgiving to sinners like myself.
Looking back at my problems that started few months ago, I think it’s God’s way of answering my long time prayer:
I’ve been yearning to re-establish and strengthen my relationship with Him, and I can say I’m going on a journey that I commit to never turn back from. I am thirsty for His Word and excited to make disciples as He has commanded us to. There are still some foundations missing in my spiritual journey but slowly God is answering my needs. I have met Moms online, mom bloggers and WAHM, who share the same faith and love of God as I do. Bonus blessing is that we go to the same Church and one is our pastor’s wife (Hello, Thammie Sy!).
How great is our God! He’s paving the way for me to get closer to Him and His Kingdom. He’s answering my request to surround myself with believers of Christ so that I am not alone in this long and continuous journey. I’m no longer afraid because I know He will provide! God is good!